Sometime............ I dont know whether it is sometime or more than
sometime, but I prefer to start anything with this word 'SOMETIME'. May be, I
feel that would make me more dynamic. Ohh yes dynamic. Because if I spend most
of my time thinking, then I wont be dynamic.. ;). And that brings me back to my
starting line.
Sometime I get confused about my priorities, my desires and my behavior as
well. I ask myself- "What you want?" But hardly gets any answer. I
mean I am fedup of asking myself about me. But I guess thats the best person to
ask.
The dwindling understanding nature, increasing frustratios, monotonous
lifestyle, practical goals and illusionist's dream. They all are making things
more stiff and unmanageable. The person who have never judged anyone, starts
finding faults of others' for his unhappiness. The person for whom CONFIDENCE
and HARDWORK have the power to reach and beat anywhere and any destiny, starts
using the term LUCK. The dream of winning the world gets confined to mere
pragmatic realitis. Speaking confidently on anything without having a
smattering of knowledge of it has changed to babbling inspite of knowing
everything. From not skipping a single chance of playing CRICKET, to just leave
it as not feel like playing. From the energetic champ to a lathergic pal.
Things do change in life. I am talking about a general guy here. But the matter
of fact is I am not talking about any general guy, in its every bit I placed my
image. In every change that I just have mentioned, I was pointing me. But in a
way I have tried to make it general. I know WHY?? Because in my every bit of
impractical desire, unreached dreams, unheard words, dissatisfied soul- to
console it, I have a one line ready made answer- "HUMAN NATURE
BOSS.." kabhi khus nai hota... So,
if I manage to make my deeds look like a general way of doing it or a generalize
thought, then I have my answer.
I heard them say-"This is the starting of the real Life". I
wonder from last 24 years what was it?? A trial..?? Offcourse not... Then why
"REAL LIFE" now?? Because now you take your own decision and you are solely
responsible for that. That is why its the starting of new Life. Real Life. But
I dont buy this because. I see my nephew, 9 months and he takes the decision
when to eat, when not to, when to sleep and when to play. Then how can I just
become a starter of Real Life..
Well things will change,
Waves will return to the shore,
Clandestine will open up,
The words will have meaning,
Thoughts will glide to have directions,
Eyes will be num,
And Hands will be Cold,
because whether its REAL or NOT... LIFE will MOVE ON...
H M Badruzzaman
