ME AND MY FIGHT....

"NO COMPLAINTS, NO DEMANDS...." funda for a smooth life.. I knew it before I heard ed it. And i believe in it. But today suddenly sitting in the roller coaster of the life, swinging high and low my silent heart beat was fighting with something. The quest was on long back, but sometimes it become inconsequential. Its only for sometime. And when it come back, it come back with a greater hunger...
I always feel proud for my low demands and low complaints, but today I am struggling with EXPECTATIONS. EXPECTATIONS of others from me. I am frightened, I am stressed, I am nervous. I am pushing myself in the search of the Alchemy, the elixir of live. I know I am alive, but somehow LIFE is going far from my Life. I am not sure, I think I am fighting with my EXPECTATIONS only and viewing it in some other way.
I wonder how my EXPECTATIONS have got the unwanted wings?
I wonder how my desires have gone to the zenith?
I wonder how my smile has become so dependent?
I wonder how my eyes started searching its own view in front of them?
I am shattered or rather confused....
Few years back I heard someone saying "H.M I take you for granted". That time I didn't feel anything. But now that very thought makes me impatient. How can someone take me for granted? How can someone even think like that?
I don't know why I have written the above incident? May be to show that in the run of time my EXPECTATIONS have reached to a different height.
I don't know what exactly going through my mind or I don't want to know it. But I want to end this crusade between me and my EXPECTATIONS.....